No More Sunset, Just Sunrise

Rayong, Thailand

"And I always thought that the sun rises and that it sets, never thought that it is the world that moves..."


I am approaching the sunset of my life because I am feeling it. It is knocking the doors and if ever I will open it, the consequences of this acceptance will manifest its presence.

Long time ago, I thought that life is sweet and all filled with joy. Growing up had their ups and downs but it was mostly the challenging parts of living that made me a person. Of all that were to face, life became a struggle to belong, to be appreciated and to be loved.

I had fallen in and out of love many times but they all ended in regrets. I used to want someone rather than need. I used to long for things but gave no effort to work for them. I always dream but had never done any to achieve them. I lived in fear, always wanting to be in my comfort zone. Then one day, I wanted to escape.

So when I dared moved out from all the unfairness, I realized that the world was no different from the small space I used to lived in. The world is filled with wisdom yet it is also home for intrigues, troubles, and deceits. Leaving my place of solace, the place where I ended up became my prison. Though I freed myself from my sad plight, I became sadder. I built bars that is now trapping my body and entered a glass jar that is trapping my soul.

Toiling to survive with meaningless existence, true love never showed its presence. This is not regrettable since it was a choice but the endless struggles to belong, to be received as a person and having good intentions for others fell short of people's expectations. I am tired of walking. I am to give up.

The sunset is about to come and I will embrace it with acceptance since there is no other way to do so. But if this sunset is just a preview of what's to transpire next, then I am asking to extend the sunrise so that I can gather more achievements in life, whether for myself or for others. If I will be able to extend the days of sunlight, then I will still bring glory to whatever I do and continue to be a better person for myself and for my family and friends. If the sunset of my life will make itself pause, then whatever I need to fulfill will be done today, now.

And for this revelation, a number of people both friends and acquaintances, gave their share of where I should be heading. 

"We're here for a purpose." - Josh

"Please do not wish for it. If it's time, it's time." - Geosef

"To know our purpose, we should ask the Creator." - Overthinker

"Enjoy your life and seek God." - Ms. Joy

"You still have a purpose that's why you're alive and kicking!" - Fiel

"You are lacking a piece of your life's puzzle. Go and find it!" - Ms. Balut

"You are still alive for a purpose." - Yccos

"Like you, I am ready to go but still with one more thing to accomplish." - Rix

"I hope we can realize the best missions in life for another chapter." - Ric

"Some of us really get caught at the same point you're in." - Olivr

"Each day we live is an opportunity for us to be a better person, to serve other and love God." - Jossie

"You are so blessed to have been able to do much and I am sure you will receive many more blessings not only for your own accomplishment but for you to be able to give more." - Pen

"Always think of a glass half full rather than half empty. It gave me a totally different perspective in life and hopefully upon reflection make you feel not "tired" but enthusistic of what lies ahead in life." - Ely

"I am your silent follower, reading your blog and wishing you are doing great." - Aboutambot

"When life gives you free stuff, take it and run!" - Diana

So that when the sunset of my life will dawn on my existence, then I can smile and be proud of all the work and support to the underprivileged, the people in need, the teachers I mentored, and the children whom I became part of their lives. I can say, I am fulfilled. I can then utter, my work is done.

Thank you for all your kind words.