Unexpected (February 29, 2008)

To lift up my spirit during these down days, I wanted to share this short note from a mum writing in behalf of his son.

“My son drew a sad face because he feels sad that you won’t be his teacher next year. He will miss you. He loves you very much.”

Leap year comes every four years and that's definite, but to graciously receive honest and endearing comments that can certainly melt hearts come unexpectedly. God is so good to give me the opportunity to share my life with children. I am blessed.

Dancing (February 25, 2008)

Many years ago, I enrolled in a drama class just to be able to make good of my ever boring life and I loved every moment of it. I was very eager to attend classes and very enthusiastic to learn. My instructors were both well-known in the field of stage acting while my colleagues in the class were bubbly, free-spirited and joyful individuals. I was surrounded by good people. I was happy.

I long for that feeling, the feeling of being alive and ready to face the day. I long for the feeling where I get to meet people with the same interests, the same goals, and the same cravings for improvement. I long being with those wonderful people coming from different backgrounds and walks of life but share the same sentiment to the craft, a love for acting.

I wanted to be free again. I wanted to act again. I wanted to sing out loud and be happy. I wanted to dance with the wind.

Dance as though no one is watching you,

Love as though you have never been hurt before,

Sing as though no one can hear you...

Live as though heaven is on earth. (Souza)

Drama (February 23, 2008)

I do find being in situations where I get to be the antagonist sort of a movie role but my life is an unending television melo-drama. I get to be thrown into fire, showered with bucketful of water, ditched by the lead actress or brought in the center of a scandal. Very cinematic!

I am always taken for granted sort of the way moviegoers or television watchers perceived extras in both films and television shows. For then it is always the lead actor who is to get the best girl. It is always the lead actress who gets the bouquet, the praises and the leading men.

I am tired being thrown into bouts and bouts of disagreements and misunderstandings leading to despairs and frustrations. I had enough. I wanted to lead a life that is free, peaceful and happy.