Listen (June 30, 2007)

I am so fascinated with people who can really sing and the movie Dreamgirls is one of the best I have seen and "heard" so far. I have the soundtrack and listens to the songs thru my MP3. The best song for me is the one sang by Beyonce, "Listen".

We need to listen to our heart even if some circumstances prove to be very difficult to avoid. It is in listening to our hearts that we truly become happier.
Here is the chorus part:

Listen,
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home, in my own home
And I tried and tried
To say what’s on my mind
You should have known
Oh,
Now I'm done believin you
You don't know what
I'm feelin
I'm more than what, you made of me
I followed the voice
you gave to me
But now I gotta find, my own..

A Metaphor (June 29, 2007)

T'was a big rain yesterday with strong winds. One of the small trees I have at the back of my house toppled down from its pot, breaking branches and smaller plants around it. I assessed the damage this morning and found that most of the smaller plants had succumbed to the weight of the big plant. Though looking weary, the plants were all alive.

In the real world, the so called "biggies" always win. The one that has the more brain power, more persuasive remarks, more glamorous friends, more money and more strength. What's left of the "small" ones is the challenge to live- to struggle, to fight.

But the great thing about being "small" is the fighting spirit to make it in this world. Never give up, always fight!

Branching Out (June 27, 2007)

We always say to ourselves and to our friends that we have so many things to do but so little time. This is true when one is overwhelmed with work and cannot find time to stop and look around. With time-management, we can actually do the things we like to do and I will be doing that starting now. I mean I have to put my efforts into many things like I used to. I used to play the piano. I used to paint sceneries and animals. I used to listen to classical music. I used to act in stage plays. I used to read novels.

It is time. I have wasted so many so I need to start anew. With just one life, I should not be wasting it. I should do things that will make me happy. It is time to branch out, still do the things I like and learn something new.

A Reality Show (June 26, 2007)

There is a reality show that features budding recording artists and movie stars. I was watching it and got to observe one young person in the show. He is unlike the rest and had been avoiding others by being alone, writing his journals, drawing pictures and not even participating in other activities the group is involved.

It struck me a lot because I am like him. In his case maybe the isolation from his family is making him miss them. Mine is different coz I feel that no one appreciates me so I just live a life of my own. If my life is a reality show, it might be boring because there wil be no conversations, no dialogues, no interactions.

Life is beautiful but very complicated.

Why? (June 15, 2007)

I sometimes ask myself why I have to work harder to earn, play harder to win, and love harder to be loved. I also ask myself why I have to travel further when others can reach their goals at arms length. I also ask why I need to exert more effort to be understood when my ideas are consistent and logical.

You probably have asked yourself why you are always struggling with issues in life, why you have to carry heavier loads than others, why you are always down when people around you are always in a happy mood.

At this age, I am still baffled that no matter how hard I try, I can never be like the successful person next door, the best athlete in sports, the most popular person in town, and the like. I was born to be simple. I was born to be just a part of a crowd. And with this comes one of my greatest disappointments in life.

Winning is Everything (June 10, 2007)

I recently saw a not so old movie called We Are Marshall and I was deeply touched by this true story. What caught my attention was the lines spoken about winning. "That it matters not how we play the game. It matters that we win. And that's how people will remember us."

Just like when we play a small game of cards or an online game, all we set in our minds is to win, win, win. But winning is not everything. It is a big part. I see it as an end. I see the way to win as more productive and viable, meaning, how we play the game.

I do hope that in this short life of mine, I had been playing the game well. Yes, I have my own winning streak but I also embrace the truth that I can never win all the time.

A New Day (June 9, 2007)

As a teacher, I am always looking for people in my workplace where I can share my ideas and for them to share theirs. I enjoy going to my workplace when I know that there are people I can count on, that there are people that can support my opinions and contributions. But when these people leave, I feel like a part of me is taken away.

In an internationally mobile environment where people come and go, I cannot but be proud to have met people who have touched my life and helped me grow as a person but also be sad, for I might not be seeing them again.

Life goes on, and all I have to do is to keep the old but look forward for a new beginning, a new friendship, a new day.

Welcome To My Garden (June 8, 2007)

I was asked by someone to enumerate some things that interest me and one of my answers will always be gardening. 

I find gardening a good way to capture nature with my hands. 

I find gardening a soothing experience when I am down or in a sad mood. 

I find gardening a therapeutic remedy for my headache after a day's hard work in school. 

I find gardening a communion with nature and with the Creator.