A little bit of strolling made him realized that he was already walking barefoot as the wetness and coldness of the sand left footprints of uneven patterns. It was a sort of walk that knows no direction. Just like his mind, the footprints echoed the way of where he was heading.
"Why should I go on with life?" was his persisting question every time he is reflecting or meditating about his existence. The mere fact that he lost almost everything in an instant gave him utter desperation. It was his perennial pessimism that was destroying the last strand of hope.
Though there was a time he was to have a vacation to free his mind of the ongoings of his recent past, he took a dive down to depression summoning the evils of hatred to permeate the core of his existence. All he was thinking was escape and that escape was a walk towards termination.
The constant communication with friends halted as well as his desire to connect and be heard or understood. He goes to work with a destitute attitude, concerned only with the 'now' and never with what of 'tomorrow'. There was a monotonous pattern of silence, outbursts, and back to silence.
A tap on his back jolted him back to reality as he was already drowned in images of unhappy thoughts. Then a summoning from somewhere near perked him because of its familiarity. He wasn't alone, in that walk at the beach for he was being followed by those who cared for him. His tears cannot be camouflaged by his smile and his friends knew him for his inability to hide his feelings.
"Jonathan, hold on and have faith!", remarked one of his friends, "and do not think that you are alone in this journey." While those words were being spoken, the magnificent sun that is now brightly shining over the horizon gave him a glimmer of joy. And when he mentioned that the colours reminded him of things that pass and fade, he was right.
This story is inspiring indeed. I have gone through a lot during my growing up years. Life is just a journey for us with each passing day that comes and go like the tides of the water. Our happiness also rise and set like the sun each day.
ReplyDeleteJonathan, you have a far sighted mind and enjoys the happiness around you.
I like how this story's ending.
ReplyDeleteI remembered you saying that this is the part 2 of a post you made then you suddenly were gone for awhile..
It's true---"and do not think that you are alone in this journey."
Marami tayong SAWI aka Samahan ng Walang Iniintindi. Hahahaha..
I miss you Cher Jo!!!
wait ang lalim ng word. icheck mo muna sa google.
ReplyDeleteLolz. kidding aside parang medyo malapit na din mawala ng strand ng hope sa akin.
Nakakatuwa ng conclusion Sir Jo. Marami tayong dumadating sa ganyang point. Pero parang wifi lang din kase yan. Mas masaya kung pipiliin mong magkaroon ng connection. :)
ReplyDeleteNagtaka ako dun sa sudden hiatus. Suki ka pa man din Sir Jo ng blog ko. I'll be sad kung wala nang nang aalaska nun minsan.hehe (peace!)
Hello Twilight Man,
ReplyDeleteYour insights are invaluable. The examples are apt on how to view life. We all have our struggles and it is how we cope with them is the one worth writing. Thank you for the visit.
Dear Yccos,
ReplyDeleteHindi naman ako sawi. I am just tired of living. But do feel the excitement of life since you are still young. Strive for more and do more. I cannot do what I my mind is telling me to do but to write them here and showcase a literary piece I am proud of, this is enough. I do go back and revisit and re read everything to remind me of all the people around me and of my accomplishments and challenges in life.
@Rix,
ReplyDeleteIkaw na ang nagsabing kaya mo ang lahat. Ikaw na ang Superman!
Aba, aba, nang aalaska ba ako? Isa lang ang naalala kong pang aalaska, yung before and after photo, guwapo na nga kaya nagawan ko pa ng comparison. Marami akong drama sa buhay and when I feel I am down and out, I get to write the best and proud of them. Wag nga lang sanang down ako everyday, kawawa naman ako. Sige connect ko na lang, parang wi fi, ang ating mga buhay.
ReplyDeletehayst... naransan ko na rin ito Sir Jo... actually until now ganun pa rin.. mahirap talag siguro ma overcome ang depression sa taong pessimistic ... pero like you sir, yung faith ko ang tanging nagpapalakas ng loob ko para di sumuko... cheers!
ReplyDeleteHello Blue,
ReplyDeleteI am not pessimistic but I do have moments of loneliness, depression and surrender. However, I can not mope in a corner and do nothing. Try to do things one at a time and focus on what is the most important. Then proceed with care as you go along the business of your life. I can be a friend so please don't hesitate to ask for help, a chat maybe?